Rantings of an anxious mother

I am not even sure where my days go.  I get up, get myself and Liam ready, take him to school and go to work.  At the end of the day, I pick him up, come home, Eric and I prepare (usually two sets of dinner), play with Liam, give him a bath and then put him to bed.  After that, Eric and I get the luxury of preparing for the next day - laundry, paying bills, etc.  These last few months before the baby comes, I am trying to squeeze in extra sleep wherever I can.  And I have to say, that I have the most wonderful, generous husband who goes out of his way to make sure that I am taken care of.  So all in all, life is pretty great.  But it is hard to imagine what life will like with the dynamic of our family changing in a few months. 

I am so grateful for the life I get to lead.  But sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with day to day activities and trying to balance being a working mom.  And from what I hear from so many other moms who have been down this road, things change dramatically between having one child and two.  I have been trying to seek out other working moms who have several kids to see how they made the transition and gather any advice they might have.  And I am trying hard not to think about the logistics of readying two little people everyday, one of which will need to be nursed before the day even begins.  Pumping at work....well that is a whole other story.  I am now remembering getting so engorged while at work when I was nursing Liam, that I had to leave meetings just to pump.  And trying to make sure that Liam still gets the love and attention he needs will be a challenge. 

With Liam I was a little spoiled because Eric was able to be at home with me so we were able to tag team it while I was on maternity leave.  But this time around...it will be just me.  These are the times I especially wish that we had family nearby.  Sorry to sound as though I am complaining.  I wouldn't want to be in any other situation than what I am in now.  But I guess I am just having the natural freakouts that come with increasing your family without increasing your time or budget!


Changing the subject (slightly) I am now 29 weeks along. As soon as Eric and I (and I really mean just Eric) paints the living room, we will begin work on Ansley's room. We still have yet to do a whole lot of work to Liam's room since he will be getting a big boy bed pretty soon with a vintage planes themed room.  It is amazing to be just how much Liam is talking.  When I look back to where he was just 9 months ago, and I see where he is now, it is really amazing.  And I have to credit his school with a lot of the knowledge he has gleaned.  This morning we were playing with a counting puzzle and he counted to 5 in Spanish.  I didn't even know they were teaching him Spanish!  And he can count to 20 in English.  I am so proud of my little man and can't wait to see how he continues to develop.  And now for some pictures. 

His newest obsession: Playing with bubbles.

His bubble blowing skills include more saliva blowing than actual air.

Mad when the bubbles run out.

And happy when they are refilled!

Checking out the new neighborhood on his Radio Flyer bike from Grandma and Grandpa Pate.  Best bike ever!

Finally nice enough to be outdoors.

He had been saying "Eat my dust!"  When he says it is sounds really meek.

Monkeying around.

7 months along.  At Lowe's this weekend, someone asked me if I was "walking the baby out."  I was like, "Uh yeah, in three months." And I had another person act shocked that I still had three months.  Like I should be getting ready to crown by the looks of me.  Sigh.